No Accidents Here

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.

2 Corinthians 2:3-4 ESV

Do you feel alone? I’ve been there. And sometimes looking on your Facebook feed or blog post feed you might feel that everyone’s life is perfect, but I guarantee you it’s not. Not many people would know it by looking at mine, but I’ve spent much of my life depressed. Depressed by life, by my own sin and things that were beyond my control. Through it all God has never abandoned me. All I have to do is look at my name, and I know that I’m not abandoned, and he knew I’d need reminding ALOT.

My first name is Judith. Judith means a Jewish woman. I’m not Jewish, but God knew I would care about the fact that I had the name.

Then, there is the name Windy. In Hebrew, my name can literally be translated into the word for the Holy Spirit because of how it is spelled. And then there’s the verses in John 3:8-9 about the wind, and you do not know where the wind goes.

My last name, the name that I’ve carried with me for 21 years can be translated son of Nicholas. And Nicholas means people’s victory.

So, my name literally means a Jewish woman with the spirit who is the “son” of the people’s victory.

You would have a hard time convincing me that God didn’t name me. I’m sure a lot of people could say the same thing about their name. I’ve not always lived up to the name he’s given me, but I want to. In the times where I’ve been at my lowest, he is patient, loves me through my failures and reminds me that there are no accidents- that before he formed me, he knew me.

I know I’m not the only one who struggles with identity, depression issues, but God is no respecter of persons, and I’m sure if you look closely you’ll find the same is true in your life. No matter what you have dealt with lately or how alone you feel, I promise you that you are not. Sometimes behind the happy Facebook post someone is struggling. Struggling with depression, finances, hurts that they feel no one understands, but it’s a lie. While you are unique, we go through struggles and are comforted by God, so we can comfort others. God sees and he knows. And I have to remind myself of this fact daily. He knows your name. He knew what my name would be- what your name would be. You are no accident!!!

Darkness

And he said to man, “The fear of the Lord-that is wisdom, and to shun evil is understanding.”

Job 28:28

Wisdom where are you?
Hidden, Hidden away.
Wisdom where are you?
Not with the birds of the air.
Wisdom where are you?
Seek the Lord with all your heart.
Wisdom where are you?
Lean not on your own understanding.
Wisdom where are you?
Only God knows.
Wisdom where are you?In the ways of the world?
No, my child wisdom isn’t there.
Wisdom where are you?
Fear the Lord and shun evil, my child.
To shun evil is understanding and there is the wisdom
you seek.
Lord help me.

A Greyhound Bus and ET

 In 1982 I never imagined how one ride on a Greyhound bus would set the wheels of change in motion for me. It was a defining year in my life. Ronald Reagan was President, “Eye of the Tiger” climbed to the top of the billboard charts, and ET premiered at the box office. That year I had long hair. It would be two more years before I would beg for it to be cut. I wore handmade gingham shirts and shorts to match that were made by my grandmother. And that year my parent’s divorced.One of the many life events that’s shaped who I am. It was also the year my mother and I came to live with my grandparents. The year that I had a stable home life. And it was the year that every Sunday I attended church. All things work together for good for those that love the Lord. It’s been true in my life, although sometimes I’ve spent more time focusing on the bad then the good. The journey to Mississippi from Johnson City, Tennessee started among a situation that seemed hopeless. A gun. An insecure father. A scared mother and an even more fearful daughter hopping on a Greyhound bus in the middle of the night, not knowing what would happen next. But God knew how it all would turn out. He wasn’t caught off guard. And looking back, I can see how he took so many things that the enemy meant for harm and used and still uses them for good. It’s a small slither of my story. One thread in the tapestry of my life, among many, that I hope to share on this blog. Even now, as I think about ET. It was the first movie that I saw in the movie theater. ET was an alien scared and alone in a strange land, but he was right where he needed to be. And it’s not an accident where God put me or you. We might not always understand it, but we have to trust that the Lord is working through it all.

I have a vision of where I’m going with my writing more than ever before, and I hope that you’ll ride this Greyhound bus with me as I share inspirational stories, snippets of my life and I hope some truths along the way. I’m just one broken vessel  sharing my experiences with other broken vessels looking toward the Potter that can make the brokenness beautiful and directs our path better than we could ever think to do.  And he might just use a Greyhound bus and ET to do it.